And 2008 out goes out with a bang. A nice big one with a bullet to go right between my eyes. Could this fucking year suck anymore?

( The Drama Just Keeps Rolling On )

Happy New Year to everyone. I hope everyone's having fun and that 2009 is a damn sight better than this year.

Life just doesn't pull any damn punches, does it?

( Funeral rundown and bitter ranting )

My grandfather passed away this morning.

To everyone I'm in contact with (or have fallen out of contact with), I probably won't be around much for the next couple weeks or so.

And if you see me online, for the love of god distract me, because that's what I need right now.


Thanks
-Dare

An Ouran fic for Trace-love.


Title: Motivations
Rating: PG-13 for naughty thoughts
Fandom: Ouran High School Host Club
Pairing(s): Kyouya/Tamaki+Kaoru, Hikaru+Haruhi
Summary: Kaoru has ulterior motives for his actions...


( Motivations )

Happy Birthday, Shu darling <3

You know I so love you when I can pull a Tezuka out of my ass lol

Title: Lazy Sundays Arc: Perceptions
Fandom: Prince Of Tennis
Pairing: AtoTezuTari
Rating: PG for slight language
Summary: Atobe's found the perfect house...or has he?
Disclaimer: Not mine. None of it. Never will be.

( Lazy Sundays Arc: Perceptions )

The drabble that preceeded it: Lazy Sunday Arc: Compromise

A heads up for anyone I chat/RP with. Mom reinstated her vacation for the end of this month. Meaning she's not going back to work until next Friday.

Meaning my time online? Spotty, possibly non-existant for most of the week and inconsistent. Still checking email when I can, so if it's urgent, I suggest that first.

Thanks, and see you all when I see you.

Might be spotty online today, if at all. Dad took the day off. >.< Ass. Thinks I'm gonna be working outside with him today when its going to be 100 percent humidity and 99 degrees heat index.

Angel-babe, will try to call if it doesn't wake up Mom, so long as you're not busy at work. I left you tags from last night.

Trace, will get to yours whenever dip-head lets me get on, if he does at all. He's being all "you're not gonna be on all day blah blah blah" at me.

Back by Wed., if nothing else.

Did I say before it felt like we were past due for another family outburst of bullshit?

Yep. Apparently we were way overdue. Dad threw a psychotic rage 53 year old baby bullshit tantrum fit when he came home.

Over dog hair.

Yes, this is actually normal for us. Well, but for him running all over the house screaming about it.

So, I may be banned from the computer for the rest of the week since he took it off for vacation. So...if I'm not around much, that will be why my dears.

Never a dull fuckin' moment around here, no siree.

Just some updating.

( family stuffs )

( Just because this is still bothering the hell out of me )

Last night Grandma's temperature went up again, and her kidneys started to fail. The priest from the Catholic Church came to give her last rites. My aunt ended up staying with her while my parents crashed home for some sleep.

I'm still taking medication, and its helping some of the icky symptoms of my cold. But last night even the Nyquil/Actifed combination I took couldn't make me fall asleep. I kept hearing ringing phones in what little sleep I got.

Right now, everyone seems to have left incredibly early this morning to be at the hospital. They left me and bro here to wait for the septic pumpers to call, and for my uncle and cousin to call with thier flight number so I can pick them up tomorrow. Once again, I'm left to do nothing but wait. They even took the cordless phone, god knows where, so I won't be leaving any room that's got a phone in it. Good thing the bathroom is right next to the kitchen.

I know I told people I'd be staying offline, but waiting is incredibly hard and I can't seem to seperate from the telephone. So unless I want to doze off in front of the TV like I was doing yesterday between cleaning and waiting, I'm going to find things to do on here. But no IM. I don't think I'm up for it.

This is probably nothing but my tired brain throwing up stupid things...but my Grandmother was born the 28th day of October. In 1928. I'll be turning 28 on Thursday, and Saturday they told us if she survived the surgery she'd only last 3-4 days. Her surgery wrapped up at 1am Sunday morning. Which makes Thursday the last day according to them. I'm having bad bad feelings right now. I'm hoping that this is just me being an emotional wreck right now because the thought is just too creepy.

I need something to do.

Damn phone...

Okay, update.

At 1am, the surgical team operating on my grandmother found a pinhole leak in her intestines that was the reason for all the fluid buildup. She managed to pull through the surgery, but they have her up in ICU on a ventilator. It's pretty much hour to hour now. But the docs bumped her chances up considerably, which is damn good. Still, she could pull through, she could not.

---

Update again. Mom just called. She's still holding on, but the doctor is a little ray of sunshine and telling her it'll be any day now. My aunt hopped a flight from CA last night so Dad's picking her up and driving her straight there to the hospital. Which my brother and I can't do because we're sick and not allowed up in the ICU wing.

So...it's still wait and see. I get to call work now and see if there's anyone that can cover my shifts for a few days. Hell. And its last minute too.

Thanks to everyone that commented last night and this morning. It means a lot to bro and me. We're just going to try and keep busy today and not expire from Dayquil overdosing.

For anyone who watches my journal, or my brother's at ridley_geek, we're just letting everyone know what's going on right now.

Our grandmother is back in surgery. Her incision from the hernia operations became infected, and she has an immense fluid buildup. The doctors have flat out told Mom that she's not going to make it. If she does manage to hang on after the surgery, it'll only be 3-4 days, and she'll be on a ventilator.

Right now all of the surrounding family is at the hospital. We're just waiting for the call here, whenever they hear anything from the surgical team. They should have called half an hour ago...I can only hope that it doesn't mean something bad.

For my friends, I'm holding up okay right now. I can't do anything but make sure everyone else is all right, right now. For my rp friends and co-players, I'm going to have to call an indefinite hiatus from all game and online activity. While I'm waiting here I'll try to get some things done, but don't expect to see me any sooner than Tuesday, if at all this week.

moonsliver knows how to reach me, if anyone would like to call.

Crossing my fingers. She's pulled through before against the odds. That's all we can hope for now.

Stolen verbatim from kracken:

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!


( The Questions )

I steeeee~al from torasetsuna


Rules:
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions
3. Then tag three people.

Notes:
Since I stole from Tora, I picked my Shishido muse. Then, going by most played I chose Atobe, Dabide, Akutsu and Sengoku. I'll tag whoever wants to do it.

( The Interview )

Crisis narrowly averted.

Thank God. Or whatever deity was involved.

So once Dad came home, he yelled at Mom for making me go back over to help with the BS going on at my grandparents. He's about ready to write them off considering we've been visiting and checking on them and doing just about everything for them for over six months now. It's getting old. And my car's beginning to fall apart and he'd like to fix it. And I have work and a bazillion things to do. So they argued and right then Grandpa called and says he's feeling a lot better. He's not going to Fargo so tomorrow I'm off the hook.

I feel like a huge weight is off my shoulders. However, this doesn't mean that in two more days or so he could change his mind or his leg could get worse. So as usual its a waiting game. *shrug* But I have tomorrow to relax! *so relieved*

Sorry for the last update, I was upset. This is too much garbage to deal with, really. I'm just glad we might finally be getting to the end here.

Okay, I'm pretty calm now after talking to Angel and Trace.

Man...barely four days and I once again am embroiled in insanity.

So...here's the thing. I have to go back to my grandparents tomorrow. Don't know when, its only supposed to be for overnight. But knowing how shit goes when my mom decides these things, I really have no idea if I will be back. My grandfather, in his infinite stupidiy, fussed with a door on Sunday that he wasn't supposed to and dropped it on his leg. His bad leg that almost got cut off three times. I guess theres a big chuck of meat gone and it turned black. Hes going to the doctor in Fargo tomorrow to get it checked. But if they put him in the hospital, which is pretty damn likely, I have no idea when I'll be back.

As usual, I was volunteered for this without my knowledge or consent. This led to another fight and now I'm just tired of it all. So, anyone I promised to talk to tomorrow...well when shit rains, it pours. Literally.

Frankly, I love my grandparents dearly. But right now I'm hoping they just take my grandfather's leg off and put them both into assisted living so this ridiculous asinine bullshit will end for awhile. That or God, please let me be run over in the parking lot at work so its just over. I sound like a selfish little bitch but its better than having a mini-breakdown and trying to put my foot through the wall.

So with any luck I'll see everybody on Thursday. If I'm unlucky...I have no idea but I'll keep Angel posted as best I can.

Love you all.

Hello all! Quickie note before I buzz off to work.

I am home!

Fellow rpers: Coming off hiatus tomorrow.

That is all for now. Ciao!

Hello all, just a quick update here before I need to run to work.

Yes, I'm still at my grandparents. Yes, I'll still be there for another week and a half at least. Yes, I'm still on hiatus for my fellow rpers.

And yes, this SUCKS.

I'm just here to grab a few things (read all my books, watched all my anime etc...), pet the kitties and check up on what I can while I'm here. I don't work til 4 but dad'll be home after 3...and hell no I'm not sticking around to be lectured about my bills again.

So...Grandma's wrists are looking better. Not 100% but they'll probably never get that way again. She goes in for an appointment and xrays on the 3rd. After that the doc and her therapist will be discussing if they think she'll be able to be on her own, since she was only supposed to have help for 2-3 weeks.

Mom's on my ass to totally reinvent their lives at the mobile home. Make things more accessible and go through all their boxes from the move etc. etc. We'll see what I feel like doing since they've been getting on fairly well with things just the way they are.

And yes. Boredom. Tons of it. On the plus side...I've gotten so desperate I've started to write longhand again. Not a lot but way more than I figured I'd be able to do. I've also caught up on my anime. UPS, Hikaru no Go, Princess Princess, Sukisyo, Prince of Tennis, etc. Now I'm taking back Wolf's Rain, Honey and Clover, Xenosaga and whatever else I just threw in the bag. lol I wont have anything to watch when I come back home!

On the bad side...there is literally nothing to do but loiter in my room watching TV or doodling on paper. My Grandmother can't be left alone in the house when Grandpa isnt there and when he is there I'm usually at his beck and call for things. My phone calls have to be limited to when he's at dialysis too, tues, thurs and sat mornings. Whoever I've promised to call, I'm going to try for those times, if you're awake or there.

And, to top it all off, whenever I see my parents or my brother, they have to attack me about money and things I've done wrong. I can never just have a nice visit with them. It always degrades into shitty comments about my bills (yes they still open my mail) or the state of my room (was in the middle of organzing when I left) or the fact that I haven't gotten a lot of work hours since Easter. (no one has...there's a war going on at work for work hours since they cut way back)

In short. I'm tired. Very tired. And bored. And lonely.

Angel, I'm going to try calling you in the morning.

Ai, I dled and printed the first four chapters of the Go fic. I see Isumi's name a lot ^_^. (rawr) I'll read what I can...this may be incredibly slow going but I'll give it my best shot.

Crys, sorry I missed your bday, hon! Lots of snuggles and love to you. Miss you!

Shu, Gottis...At least give me one day before attacking me about the new rp, yes? ^_^

Neko-babe, hope you liked your stuff. ^_^ Long live Eiji.

Regis, you're welcome. Interesting plot bunny for an Onizuka/Ryuji drabble, pre-GTO. *eyebrow waggle*

Cricket, LOVE YOU!

Everyone else...I'm out of time. Dammit. But everyone take care and I love you and I'm dying to be back home. *hugs computer moniter and is zapped*

See everyone in two weeks hopefully!

Well, tomorrows the day.

lol Most of you who RP with me already know this, but I'll be gone for three weeks now. No computer, or internet or anything. *weeps already*

If anyone needs to contact me for anything, I'll be trying to stay in contact with moonsliver. If I owe anyone fics or anything...pounce me when I get back?

I didn't forget yours either, scribs, I'll be working on it longhand from my grandmother's house. Which means I love you because I detest longhand lol.

Love to all of my flist...and see you in three weeks!

~Dare

Word count: 779
Pairing: Oshitari Kenya/Ibu Shinji
Summary: Shinji surprises Kenya with a compromise.

( I tat you, I tat you not... )